Johnny Is Seeking Mental Health
Hi. I'll cut the 3rd person stuff. That's a force of habit from the "business" days. You know, saying "we" so it sounds like it's more than just me. This is me, just me, Johnny.
You might remember me as a guy who was super passionate about filming wedding videos and shooting event photography. I did that for about 5+ years. It's hard to say when I lost the spark, exactly. But it happened somewhere in the mix of me becoming a stay-at-home-dad and the return of my depression,
I've been battling clinical depression and trying to find the right medication that will balance me. I've been seeing a psychologist for psychotherapy. It hasn't been going as well as it could. I've used my toddler as an excuse to never leave the house, to cancel plans with people, and basically completely give up on my business.
My kid is great. I'm the one that sucks.
Anyways, it's hard for me to picture the spark coming back, but who knows, it might. I might find the right drugs and get into the right state of mind and suddenly want to film your wedding or photograph your gala. But I don't want to right now. I want to close the curtains, crawl back in bed, and wake up some other day in the distant future when I don't feel this way all the time.
I can't do that, however. I have to raise this toddler. And also a baby. Did I mention that my wife and I are having a second child? A daughter. She is due August 7th, 2019. So right now I have to figure out how to be a half-decent father to these kids. I have to figure out how to resemble the man my wife married.
The one productive thing i've done throughout all of this was become a professional writer. That is to say, i've written and published books, and people have paid for them, so I guess that makes it official. You can check those out here, if you want. Not sure why you would, though. You probably came here looking for video or photo services. In that case, let me tell you about some great vendors I've had the privilege of working with in my years in the industry.
You might remember me as a guy who was super passionate about filming wedding videos and shooting event photography. I did that for about 5+ years. It's hard to say when I lost the spark, exactly. But it happened somewhere in the mix of me becoming a stay-at-home-dad and the return of my depression,
I've been battling clinical depression and trying to find the right medication that will balance me. I've been seeing a psychologist for psychotherapy. It hasn't been going as well as it could. I've used my toddler as an excuse to never leave the house, to cancel plans with people, and basically completely give up on my business.
My kid is great. I'm the one that sucks.
Anyways, it's hard for me to picture the spark coming back, but who knows, it might. I might find the right drugs and get into the right state of mind and suddenly want to film your wedding or photograph your gala. But I don't want to right now. I want to close the curtains, crawl back in bed, and wake up some other day in the distant future when I don't feel this way all the time.
I can't do that, however. I have to raise this toddler. And also a baby. Did I mention that my wife and I are having a second child? A daughter. She is due August 7th, 2019. So right now I have to figure out how to be a half-decent father to these kids. I have to figure out how to resemble the man my wife married.
The one productive thing i've done throughout all of this was become a professional writer. That is to say, i've written and published books, and people have paid for them, so I guess that makes it official. You can check those out here, if you want. Not sure why you would, though. You probably came here looking for video or photo services. In that case, let me tell you about some great vendors I've had the privilege of working with in my years in the industry.